I couldn't have been more wrong.
Current Residence: Australia, Melbourne
Favourite genre of music: I hate all music
Wish I had Your Mouth 2another note for danny,Wish I had Your Mouth 2 by ~lake-effect-kid
the day i was set to go home i packed up all my things and sat in the waiting room while they signed me out. i looked at the photos on the wall of all the patients who died in this hospital and i had to pinch myself so that i wouldn't cry. as i walked through the exit i couldn't help but feel like a part of myself had died back on that hospital bed and i couldn't decide if i had really made it out alive.
the day you came back was the day i sat in my room and cried. when my mom came up the stairs and knocked on the door i told her i was busy and didn't want to talk, so she sent my father up to have a 'manly chat' with me. and he asked me what i thought of girls and i said i didn't think of girls. he asked me what i thought of and i said i thought of you. so he told me i was grounded and that i would have to stay in my room until i found out what being a real man was all about. so i stayed in my room all night and cried, and really didn't get anywhere.
the day you
I Call ShotgunI'm losing friends like I'm losing time,I Call Shotgun by ~lake-effect-kid
But what is time without these friends?
And If I just cut off all these loose ends,
Will my body survive the fall?
I'm fighting with myself all over again
And these strangers, they aren't like before
So lock me away for the second time today
And let me grow out these sores.
I'll ignore you all until I'm sure I'm just fine
Because these late nights drain my bloodshot eyes
And did I ever mention my tired bones?
Turn off the light, I'm at my best when I'm alone
Stealing Your Sundaysummer glow, how'd it go?Stealing Your Sunday by ~lake-effect-kid
if i could only get to you and be your mail order best friend,
then we could spend the winter sharing the dreams we never had,
and i would ask you, "is life really this sad?"
simmer of shimmer
if i could only take your hand and we'd snap(snapsnap) photos
of the rain drowning our love-letters and we would make sure
that by the morning the only thing that isn't soaked, is our lips.
(but where's the point in that?)
for everything, you're everything
if i could only show you that we are not so different
and that the words you write are the heart of mine,
then maybe tomorrow you will believe me when i say
"this could make me cry"
if i could only sleep under your sky
and see what the world would look like,
then we could laugh at the blisters on my feet and face,
and i would be glad that i found you in this place.
Wish I had Your Moutha note for danny,Wish I had Your Mouth by ~lake-effect-kid
the day i arrived here i locked myself in the school toilets and cried until it was recess. as i walked away from the smell of shit i remembered.. those inked letters above the mirror that said 'this was never my life' and i have never cried another day since then because i realised, they were never my tears.
the day i met you i had never been in so much physical pain. i had blood dripping from my lip and you told me that i needed to get some help. i wasn't sure what you meant back then, but i walked all the way from the park to the hospital and as soon as i got there they told me "it wasn't worth the wait" so i walked back home and stapled my lip shut. the bleeding stopped, but the pain didn't.
the day i took you into my room i let you place your hand on my leg and i watched as you felt around. i don't know what scared me more, the fact that you were a boy and you were touching me or that there was a chance in that very moment that i loved you. when you l